Name: Reak

Alter: 17

Origin: Germany

Diagnoses: ADD, social phobia, anxiety disorder, somatoform disorder, panic attacks, extreme PTSD, depression

Living arrangement: no regular school attendance due to mental illness

Condition: Constant stress, survival mode – but I won’t give up

Faith: Orthodox – gives support

Goal: Stay stable, understand who I really am

Over a year of daily fear of death survived

Despite everything, never completely collapsed

Dragged me through psychosomatic hell

Never lost faith in change

Help sought – and accepted, even though it hurts

Learned how deep pain can go – without giving up

Didn’t die – although I often wanted to

I started to understand myself

I can say: “I’m not feeling well” – honestly

I cry. I scream. I function – somehow

I have found words for things that eat me up

I am no longer completely alone

I'm still here.

And I'm writing this text. For you. For me.